My Synopsis

A lot of them often wonder. Today, I join the band-wagon of wonderers. I join them, not because I'm bothered but because the intensity of their wonderings amuse me.

Their incessant unwavering stares and unending whisperings ought to unnerve me. Ordeashi! I walk on with my shoulders squared and my head held high, with my usual confident gait.

I'm that gal who realised, perhaps too early, that she is different from others.

I'm that gal who is insanely popular but has very few committed friends.

I'm that gal who gets a fourth glance of awe but is often ignored when occasion calls, "she just wont do!"

I'm that gal who often appears to be all buttered up and cush but who know the struggles I've had?

I'm that gal who may often appear to be comfortable but my numerous needs do they know nothing of.

I'm that gal who may often come across as tongue-tied but wishes she could let show all her social skills. "What is stopping her then?" I swear I would answer if I knew.

I'm that gal who didnt graduate with a 1st class but is incredibly witty and intelligent.

I'm that gal who is often by-passed without being given a chance to show what substance she's made of.

I'm that soul-load of talent, waiting for the purposed time to bust forth!

I'm that star up in the sky that would shine bright even through the thickest clouds.

I am that positive energy waiting to course through your body and get you through everyday of your life.

I am who I am!
Who are you?!

sHe LoVeS tHe PlEaSuRe WaVeS!

I was feeling real good and was in the mood for a little hang time with my gals, so I headed out to Beck's Lounge (my fav spot). As I strolled leisurely along Torres Avenue, someone bellowed, "Yo, Vonny"! I turned and........Christ, I haven't seen this guy in months!

"Steeeeeve!" I screamed as we both ran to hug each other. We were still busy forming 'long lost love' when a car horn blarred, forcing us off the middle of the road. Never mind the driver's cursing, I hadnt seen Steve in a while and we had a lot to catch up on. With my initial date temporarily forgotten, Steve and I headed to d closest eatery.

I was still filling Steve in on 'wat's new' when my three phones started buzzing all at once. With profuse apologies, I placated my gals and then agreed to meet up with Steve again in two hours.

I got to Beck's Lounge and found my friends sulking. I apologized again and soon enough, we were 'sniffing' up some smirnuff with nkwobi while updating each other on other people's relationships- you know the girl gossip thingy now.

Two hours flew by quickly and my pals made faces when I told them I had to leave. As I waked off, one of them yelled, "Na man dey make you run leave us shey". I chuckled and thought, "how true that is". As I got into a cab, I began reminiscing on my first meeting with Steve.....




......."Not again. Aaarrrrgghhh!". My computer has been blanking out on me repeatedly in the past few days, causing me to lose some of my work each time. "That's it! I'm going to get my lappy fixed right now", I yelled to my secretary as I walked past her desk. I wanted to run this errand myself because its the perfect excuse to see my gal-buddy, Rebecca, and drag her to lunch with me.

Now Rebecca owns Becca ICT Inc. (she hates being called becky), so of course, my laptop will be fixed with no charge.

As I climbed up the stairs, a guy darted from a corner and ran into me, causing me to drop my laptop. He apologised profusely but it was of no use, my laptop was gone! Becca was out in seconds, apologizing and offering to get me another. We still got to talk a bit but couldnt have lunch. The incident made Becca feel really bad.

I was over at Lagoon restaurant the next day, waiting for my brother so we could have our once-a-month dinner when I spotted the guy from yesterday, strolling in. I bowed my head hoping if wouldnt see me but......

"Hello there. We didnt get properly acquinted yest. Do you mind if I join you till your guest arrives?" He didnt wait for a reply and note, he didnt say anything about my laptop.

My initial thought was to throw him off but I changed my mind and he turned out to be a lot of fun. After an hour, it was more than apparent that my brother had stood me up, so we just went on enjoying the evening..........




.....I strode towards the eatery, barely able to contain my excitement and then stopped short at the door and stared. Steve was already sitted inside, waiting for me. By now you may have guessed that Steve and I are a little more than friends but that's it! We have never been able to move past there- which is nowhere.

Barely two months after the incident with my laptop, Steve left Becca's to start his own company. I was ecstatic! We got along great but Steve was so into his company that there was no room for 'us' to exist. Some three months after he started his company, I got called out of Lagos for two months to voice a 3D animated movie, so we became lost in our separate worlds.

Looking at him through the glass door now, I felt it wrong to walk in there and more or less, start all over again. Steve is the best but he is married to his work. He is the kind of guy you might have to date(alongside his job) for six years before he marries you, only to play second fiddle to his job.

The thought of it all caused me to be overwhelmed with sadness. I slowly let go of the door handle I had been holding and walked away. Away from the eatery, from the love and hurt, from the pain and pleasure. Away from Steve!

BLANK

When its time to write exams, we all go to the library to read. At some point or the other, some or all of us read so much for a paper that when it iwas time to write in the hall, our brains froze- we went blank and then we beat ourselves for not remembering.

Well, I have not written a single story or even an inspirational piece in two solid months! If you have ever gone blank in an exam hall before, then you know how I feel. I hate to call it "writer's block" because that term sort of trivializes this problem.

I'm sorry that I have choosen to burden you with my ramblings but I made up my mind that no matter what, I would write something today. no matter how blank you get, you will always be able to write about being blank at least.

I know I have been sounding like a broken record thus far but the good thing about me is no matter how moody I get, I always try to look on a possible bright side. so raise your glasses comrades, here's to the beginning of the blocking of our writer's block!

The void

Every human being was born with this emptiness inside. This is why somehow and someway, we have this maddening desire to fill it up. The desire to close up that gaping hole in us and get on with it.

Some have attempted filling it with acquisition of clothes. Some are ridiculously impatient to start a family.Some have tried to fill this unquenchable thirst with the love for cars. Others like me may even believe the choir ministry is all that is needed.

None of this is enough. All of these are not enough. Be honest with yourself, these things only give you a temporal high, up untill it doesn't and then you're back to square one.

I don't mean to preach today but maybe I should. I have been in this p;lace of thirst countless times and only today have I realized and come to a full understanding that nothing and absolutely nothing can fill this void except..........

No matter how much money you make. No matter how perfect your fiance(e) is. No matter how 'porsche' you are. No matter how much you kill your conscience and numb your senses to the reality of this void, you will never be able to fill it and it will never go away unless you develop a RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD

Just so we are clear, not even your work for God can compare to the intensity and passion one gets from knowing the Father. It is not even enough to be born again or saved alone.....WALK WITH GOD!

Olomi NOW NOW!

There is no quick way to make money. There is no quick way to make friends. There is no quick way to love someone. There is no quick way to draw close to God. There is no quick way to do anything. Every thing that must mean some thing in life must be patiently nurtured and taken through all due process.

Wrong actions are those carried out with lack of patience and improper timing. A thief steals money he should later have because he is impatient. A fornicator has all the fun he should have in marriage. Even a murderer decided to kill someone who would still die, out of impatience.

Well, all these could be okay except for the fact that such actions taken or done at inappropriate times often have unsavory consequences (no need to expound on that).

Whatever you have to do, do it well and do it right!